Friday, March 12, 2010

Day 25: not giving up

Let me make a confession…today the grateful girl had a pretty gloomy day. My mood matched the rainy weather which meant a little complaining; a lot of doubting and my productivity was at an all time low. I’ve been doing some photography studying lately and this should be a good thing, but for some reason it never ends up that way for me. The more studying I do the more I discover incredible photographers like Courtney FriesAmy Wenzel, Simplicity Photography, or Beth Jansen and then I melt. I think I want to be this good, I’ll never be this good; I’ll never start my own business. I want to be so good at this and today I feel like I’m not. I don’t want to be good so I can make a lot of money or so I can be famous I just want to be good so I can feel good when I look at my work and not horrible. Today I feel I will always be a jack of all trades master of none. I want to be a master at this art. Today Satan attacked me.


So to fight back I whipped out my camera and undressed my babies and started shooting. They banded together and decided to not give Mom one smile. I guess that was their protest for undressing them, but it doesn’t matter they’re just so cute even when they don’t smile. It wasn’t the most successful shoot, but I did fight back.

Today I’m grateful I didn’t give up.


5 comments:

  1. Even not smiling, they are the most beautiful babies I have ever seen! And I'm glad you're not giving up. You are really good at this.

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  2. You are GREAT at photography! The best one I know. Don't give up friend, it would be a waste. Love you!

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  3. Jaime,
    I'm so proud of you!! The Holy Spirit in you identified the lie and snuffed it out!! I'm teaching the youth next week on "Lie Detector" and this is a terrific example. You are good at what you do! Keep pressing on and in! Love you!

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  4. These babies are so cute. You are a great photographer of them. I often found the monotony of fdgs, diaper changes, cooking,cleaning could wear on you but then the thought of adding all that to going to work as well would make me realize how lucky I was to stay home with them but then I needed to find adult conversation and activities. Don't be so hard on yourself when you feel not so perky. You are a great wife and mother. Love Anne

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  5. Girl, the best thing about you is that you don't even realize how talented you really are. The passion that you already possess is something that you can't learn from anyone, and you have to remember that! As photographers, we never feel good enough as the next guy, but once you begin to embrace what you do well, you will start to see things in yourself that you never imagined yourself capable of. I love your photography and I think you are going to do great things!

    Love~
    Courtney

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