Day 56: Send Off

Yesterday we sent my husband off to Africa for 10 days. The week has been kind of crazy getting him ready to go, making sure he had all he needs, and it would all weigh less than 50 lbs. After multiple trips to the store, many to do lists and shopping lists we checked everything off the list and got him on the plane in time. The only thing we forgot to really take a look at was how it would feel to be apart. Last night after the babies went to sleep it sunk in and my heart began to ache for my husband. I miss him! It amazes me how he has been gone for less than 24 hours and I feel as though a part of me is missing. I didn't know this is what happened when you married someone. I'm now convinced that when you do marriage God's way He turns it into a miracle that you never thought could happen. Phil is my partner, my teammate, my best friend, my love without him around I feel a little uneasy like I don't really know what to do, normal everyday tasks don't seem normal or easy. Everything feels foreign without him. This feeling amazes me because this is coming from the girl who was so independent and never let anyone in for fear of getting hurt. Phil has ruined me for independence and knocked down all my walls of insecurity and now life without him is simply unbearable...that's the miracle! I never thought my heart would need someone or love someone the way it does Phil.


Today I'm grateful he will be back in 10 days...I think I might begin counting hours.