Day 53: One-on-One

One of the hardest things I have found about having twins is you feel like you're always being pulled to the other one. I often have questions of am I giving them each enough attention and I'm giving one more than the other, am I comparing them to each other? All of these questions just rolling around like a lost tumbleweed in the desert. I just want to love each one of them enough that I truly know them. To be known I believe is one of the greatest ways of being loved. The fact that my husband can tell you how I would react to something, what my favorite color is, or what I like to eat tells me so much that he loves me because he has taken the time to know me. I want to know Zaya and Chase in their individuality. They are two completely different people just running this course of life at the exact same time with the exact same people, but their individuals. I know this because of our one-on-one time together. It doesn't happen often because a Mom of twins strives for a cohesive schedule, but when it does happen I'm learning it is sweet time that I should cherish.

This morning Chase woke up just about 45 minutes before his sister. He is kind of growing out of that cuddle stage and finding out that cuddle time usually means nap time isn't far to follow, but this morning he welcomed a little cuddle with Mommy. We sat on the patio and listened to the birds sing and watched the squirrels play. Chase and I had a wonderful one-on-one. Inevitably since Chase woke up early that would mean he would go down earlier for his nap which would mean some one-on-one time with Zaya. My sweet girl and I had a cuddle and a book. We read "When you take a Mouse to the Movies" after that we danced and then she let me know she was tired so I kissed her and laid her down for her morning nap. My one-one-one time with Zaya was precious.

I'm learning to enjoy these times even if it means mom doesn't get a break. It's my time to get to know them individually and really enjoy just them. I vow today this is something I will do throughout their lives is make time for them one-on-one.

Today I'm grateful for my one-on-ones.